Sunday, July 28, 2002
Free condoms huh Court? I see you have been snooping my alter ego ;)
How is Mike anyway?
I think that Court's blog may have led me to one of my own. I too know how you feel, craving the male relationship. It just seems here lately that every guy I've been involved with is "not looking for a commitment" well duh honey if I wanted to marry you don't you think I'd be trying a little harder? And what is the deal with every male between the ages of 18-30 in the surrounding counties all having children? Ever heard of birth control? Not that I don't like children, I would just prefer they be my own. I love my girlfriends don't get me wrong, I mean who can beat our weekly 'business meetings' at Mas Amigos/El Burrito? It's just that sometimes I wish I had a guy to call me up and take me out just for the fun of it. Someone I know won't molest me, unless I want them too, hehe. Someone I know will actually be there longer than my traditional
one month limit. I've become too cynical about the whole deal I suppose, I don't want to be but it seems all of my assumptions are reinforced daily by what few male friends I have. I know, I know, " you're just hanging out with the wrong guys, thats all" hey, I'm not stupid. I've been exposed to a real variety of people, Id say in general they all suck, not just the males. It's just that the males are worse. Take for instance all of Jamie's guys. I've known James since he was 14 and I watched him evolve into the asshole he is, along with all of his friends. Seems to me that once a boy reaches 15 its all downhill after that. Of course, 15 in guy years is like 10 in girls years, its a well known fact. Even though they all suck, I still wish I had good one, if there is such a thing. My Mom always told me, "honey, you've just got to find the one that has the least amount of acceptable flaws to you." So now I ask myself, "Where are you Mr. Not So Perfect? hahaha, It really does put a smile on my face.
I will not be the first one to speak,
and if he never calls me again,
I will always think of him fondly..... as an asshole.
Thanks Sara
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:59 PM
