Friday, April 30, 2004
In the spirit of things...
There are only four questions of value in life.
What is sacred?
Of what is the spirit made of?
What is worth living for?
What is worth dying for?
The answer to each is the same. Only love.
-- Don Juan Demarco
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Thursday, April 29, 2004
"They actually knelt down and prayed for me..."
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I'll leave for this weekend with memories of the last...
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After a rocky day yesterday today everything is back on track.
Baby Reagan is home safe and sound
the bid has been located
the shop is almost ready to open
the durango is FIXED finally
Pensacola is on the horizon
today is payday
and Jason has lasted a whole month so far
(yes that is a record for me)
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Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Virgo
August 22 - September 21
The outlook for today is excellent, dear dear Virgo. The current alignment of the planets, and the somewhat oppressive atmosphere of the past few days, inspires you to change your surroundings and visit new places. Why not plan a little trip? All signs indicate that now is the best time to plan such an adventure. If you delay, you will find yourself stuck in the same old routine again
LOOK OUT PENSACOLA...HERE I COME!!!
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Monday, April 26, 2004
I hope you can excuse...
my sincere lack of enthusiam and desire to pat everyone on the back and express my undying love and affection for them this morning. I had a good time this weekend because I was surrounded by the people that I love the most in this world, Jessica, Kevin, Sara, and Jason. However, had it not been for them I think my weekend would have been severely lacking. I've got real mixed feelings about greenfest this year. I missed last year because everyone's drama was getting on my last damn nerve. This year just wasn't what I expected. I understand Texas music is growing, but I think everyone has forgotten somewhere along the road that the beauty of what we've got lies within its simplicity. The bartender at Coppertank was a first class PRICK, and can I express that I was severly pissed off that friday night the DJ announced about 20 times that Pat Green was going to be there Saturday night. Don't get me wrong I love Pat but if you want to see him, go buy a friggin ticket and go to a show. Last time I checked Greenfest was 'for the fans by the fans'. I came to see my friends, my extended family. Of course since the bartender was a PRICK we left
quite early and I didn't get to see as much of them as I'd liked. I felt this year that our family had lost its authenticity. Maybe it was just me being me and as usual being overly critical. Something about the whole weekend just seemed phony and I never could put my finger on exactly what it was. It wasn't the people because I love all of them dearly. Maybe it's just Austin, that town is too much for me. Its smothering. It was wonderful to see everyone and I'm ready to float that damn river. It's calling my name right now!
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Thursday, April 22, 2004
Introducing Reagan Avery Lawson
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Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Love is in the air...
I suppose it's because it's Springtime, time for new beginnings, new life, new growth. But love is definately in the air. Whether it's new love just blossomming, or laments of love past. I've found myself caught up in the musings today. I'm inspired, although I don't know yet in what way. They say to write what you know. So I will...
I know that there have been 3 times in which I've thought I was
"In Love", none of which I now know were truly valid. I've discovered things about myself through all of it. Things that reflect who I am, who I have been, and who I will become. I desperately believed at the times I was totally head over heals in love. What I failed to realize was that in order to be in love with someone else you have to love yourself first. I think it's hard for us to unconditionally love ourselves. As a matter of fact I don't believe that any of us do learn to love ourselves until we have had our hearts broken, beaten and bruised numerous times. When we've suffered our afflictions, we learn to protect ourselves from them and learn our own self worth. Of all the times I've "been in love" I've never ever looked back after it was all said and done and said "what if it had worked out?" "what if I could have done something to make him happier?" When God was going over the blue prints of my genetic design he left out the genetic program that causes one to feel regret. I've always lived my life with the feeling that his hand was on my shoulder guiding me through my path. Therefore giving me the ability to take the things I encounter as his blessings even when they seem painful. Always allowing me to look at the glass as half full instead of half empty. I won't lie and tell you that this makes life easier, quite the contrary. I actually think it makes life harder because when you know something, you know it. There is no 'ifs ands or buts' it just is. So each of the times I was 'in love' I knew. I knew that it just wasn't.
Now I've got something different. I don't know what it is, and I've done a fairly good job not analyzing it to death like it's in my nature to do. The only issues I've had have come from outside sources that seem to trip me up due to my underlying deep mistrust of people. However, something about this just calms me down. It leaves me at peace and the questions don't keep me awake at night, the doubts don't cloud my head and the fear hasn't overwhelmed me. For once, I don't find myself wishing I was single again just out of convenience. See I figured out something about myself. I was so willing to be single forever because it's so much easier that the constant struggle it's always been to be a part of a couple. This has been so natural that I didn't even realize I was part of a 'couple' till Monday night when Maxine commented on the fact we're cute together. My independence hasn't been threatened, I don't have to be someone else, I haven't had to rearrange anything to accomodate him, it just fits. I'm not saying it always will, I don't know the answer to that. But I know that it fits right now and I'm not going to question that, I'm just going to roll with it.
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Tuesday, April 20, 2004
So...
I don't know what!
I just can't seem to get myself in the mood of things and I've got tons to be excited about.
LRC91080: ok someone has to put me in a party mood quick
samfordss: uh-oh
LRC91080: yeah, i've been having to talk myself into greenfest for the past three days
samfordss: oh no!!!
samfordss: it's going to be fun!! it's austin and amy and fun!!!
samfordss: it's good mexican food and making fun of people!
samfordss: it's cold beer and great music!
samfordss: it's old friends and new friends!
samfordss: (working yet?)
LRC91080: hang on...
samfordss: it's vintage clothes shopping and hangovers!
samfordss: it's 6th street and walking home!
samfordss: it's watching the sun come up!
LRC91080: oh ya got me right there! with the vintage clothes
LRC91080: haha
samfordss: lol
samfordss: you're going to have fun, if i have to hold you down and get you drunk.
samfordss: maybe the band will let you stand on stage to get a better view
LRC91080: no no no no
samfordss: lol
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Monday, April 19, 2004
I love to watch you laugh and smile
I love to watch you dream
I love it when you take my hand and let me know you believe in me...
and now that you're in my life
baby I know exactly who I am
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Thursday, April 15, 2004
Could I be any crazier about him? I didn't know it was going to hit me this hard.
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Could we possibly have a baby by the end of the day?????
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Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Have you ever been so lonely,
No one there to hold?
Pull me in or disown me,
And then climb inside.
My arms are open wide.
Have a look inside.
It is not that I am scared to learn,
Why I'm empty inside.
hold my hand or show some concern,
If I live or die.
My eyes are open wide.
Help me look inside.
I hear the water drip from the faucet.
It's sweetly falling in tune.
I'm gently closing the closet.
I fall to the floor,
and crawl to my room.
The thought of ending it soon...
Just let me sleep in my room.
Hear me cry! cry! cry!
I hear a knock at the front door.
Don't come in!
I try to look at you
But I can't stop shaking.
Leave me alone. Just go away.
Mother I'm so scared.
Empty bed and all of the sheets are gone,
They're wrapped around me and you.
All is quiet but the drop of a gun.
I want to belong...to someone...
But maybe life's not for everyone.~BLUE OCTOBER
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Monday, April 12, 2004
lizziedizzy417: i wish men where like tampons - u could keep them in a box for as needed
the implications of that statement are endless.
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Heavy Hearts...
today's been sorta strange. I can't put my finger on any one thing about it to blame. It's been a culmination of events. I don't understand sometimes how the ones who are supposed to love and support you end up hurting you for selfish reasons. I'm scared too. Scared of what has happened, and what could happen. These past two weeks have been so great that I haven't even thought about the what if's. They never crossed my mind until someone conveniently threw them in my face. Why shouldn't I deserve someone to treat me great? Goodness knows I've put up with enough bullshit to last a lifetime. Why shouldn't it be my turn?
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Thursday, April 08, 2004
I love my dad!
Today he was honored by Liberty County for his community service. As of Today, April 9, 2004 is hereby pronounced Oscar Cooper Day in Liberty County. How cool is that!? He's such 'tha man' !!!
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Wednesday, April 07, 2004
It's a...
laying in bed on sunday afternoon, listening to the rain on a tin roof, sitting on the porch swing, laughing till you cry, finding an extra $20 in the dryer, watching a baby smile, dancing in the rain, eating a chocolate sundae, wrapped up in newly washed sheets, just perfect sweet tea, pickin the guitar around a fire, talking to your best friends, watching your favorite movie, sleeping on a feather bed, soaking in a warm bath, smelling freshly baked apple pie, walking on the beach, sleeping under the stars kinda feeling.
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Tuesday, April 06, 2004
Just so I won't be THE ONLY one getting laughed at ;)
Amy and
Sara
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Monday, April 05, 2004
It's odd when you get something you never even knew you were missing in the first place. I feel like I've been giving of myself for so long without receiving anything in return that it's just become natural. Then someone comes in who pays attention to the small things, a smile, rubbing your back, asking how your day was. No matter how small the guesture has been I've noticed it. It's something I've rarely had, and something I haven't had at all in the past year. I only hope I can return the favor and never take it for granted. It's been such a refreshing change from the things I've been dealing with lately. It's amazing how quickly your feelings towards someone can change when you finally realize how badly they've been treating you.
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1. Lost ID
2. Lost my stomach
3. Lost a lung
4. Lost my debit card
5. Lost my necklace
6. Lost all remnants of self-respect
7. Lost NOTHING in Oklahoma
8. Lost all respect for people who choose to live in Oklahoma
9. Lost all recollection of Friday night
10. Lost my desire to drink Jager
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Friday, April 02, 2004
1. got the clothes
2. got the shoes
3. got the jewelry
4. got the makeup
5. got the phone
6. getting money
7. getting Jager
8. getting gas
9. getting grub
10. getting outta here!!!
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Thursday, April 01, 2004
The $64 Dollar Question
...and the TaxiCab Theorem
In a moment of revelation one evening while having a beer with my Dear Friend Brian, I came up with the TaxiCab theorem. See a girl has a main driver that she uses regularly. This 'driver' being that one favorite out of all of her suitors that she tends to give the majority of her attentions to. However, every once in a while a girl gets tired of the same old route to 'work' with the same old driver who drives the same old way. Sometimes a girl just needs to take a cab to 'work'. Hell, sometimes a girl might just want to walk to work alone (with a new package of AA batteries of course). Some girls might even like to carpool every now and then. Maybe it's nothing her regular driver did wrong, maybe she just likes to spice things up a little. Now it's not easy to get to be a girls regular driver and it sure isn't easy to get to be a cab driver either. I've had alot of guys who wanted to be a cab driver for me, but they just couldn't pass the driving test. Maybe they were smooth at the wheel but just couldn't handle the parallel parking. Whatever the reason somtimes a guy just can't pass that driving test. In that case send him packing and point him in a new career direction. Perhaps the fab five will be looking for a new partner soon, you never can tell.
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