Monday, February 20, 2006
You open up the door and the world pours in...all it's problems, solutions, and sins. I haven't had a weekend like that in awhile. I enjoyed every minute of my hill country road trip. It's been way too long. I could have done without the 18 degree windchill though. Mostly I slept. The speed of my life has been a little too much lately and I needed a roadblock like that. I needed to rest holed away in a hotel room halfway across the state. As for Greenfest...It was great to see everyone as always. Norm kissed me, then insulted me as usual. Everyone else was as drunk as I always remember them. Ashlee Rose was jaw-dropping, Mike Mancy is BEAUTIFUL (and he has a very sexy knee), Ryan Turner rocked, that other Mike was nothing short of disgusting (which is sad because who knows, he might have had good music, but you couldn't hear it for all the filth coming out of his mouth), and Brandon was brilliant as usual. I drank a total of 4 beers for the whole evening and never came anything near to being buzzed. As I stood there observing the debauchery, good times, and oblivious people I was struck by how alien it all seemed to me. I was sitting on the outside looking in, thinking..."Didn't I used to be one of those people?" What happened to me that now I find no comfort or amusement in any of it. It downright bores me. Not the music of course because I can't ever get enough of it. But the whole "scene" I found it tired and oldhat. So I asked myself where does this leave me now? I just don't know. You get involved in something and it keeps evolving and you change with it and you grow and expand because really isn't that the point of everything? Growing and expanding lest you grow stagnant. Well there are only so many shows you can go to, so many songs you can hear on the radio, so many new artists you can discover before you want something more out of it. But what is it I want? I listen, I play, I write my own, I guard it like it was some precious treasure of national security that no one should ever hear. So where do I go now? Cory sums it up for me...Restless girl, on a restless nightThere's no where to goSo she drives all night
♥Oh, so vintage... 9:23 PM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
well tomorrow is the day
Greenfest...here we come. I can't believe we're going to this. I don't even know the people who are going to be there haha. But any excuse to party right?
♥Oh, so vintage... 10:46 PM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
UPDATE...He is alive, but extremely sick. However, when he gets well he will need some time to recover from the severe beating I am going to give him with my 'ack right stick'
♥Oh, so vintage... 4:03 PM
Sunday, February 12, 2006
I don't know what to do. How do you go about finding someone who is missing when you know so little? I'm tempted to drive to his new place except I'm not EXACTLY sure where it is. I can't believe the thoughts that have been running through my mind since I found out yesterday that Misty hasn't talked to him either. I swear to god there better be something wrong because if there isn't and I've gone through all this for nothing, I'm going to kill him. I keep thinking that this is crazy and it can't be happening and then I think about Court's friend Romy and this crazy guy that pulled a fast one on her and maybe that's what's happening to me. But maybe it's not. What if Brian is really in trouble and I can't get to him? I love him so much and I'd be devestated if something happened to him. I really and truly don't know what to do.
♥Oh, so vintage... 7:51 PM
Mi Vida Loca....????
I haven't posted in awhile because I jinxed myself with that post about how great everything is. As of the moment I hate my job and I WILL be finding a new one asap. I don't know where my boyfriend is. Seriously. No one can find him.
He left a week and a half ago with his sister to go get an apartment.
Didn't call me for 2 days.
Called me to tell me he had a place in huffman.
Asked me to spend the weekend with him at his new place.
Called me Wednesday night just to 'touch base' with me.
Said he'd call me back in an hour.
Haven't heard from him since then.
I get pissed.
Call him Friday and leave a message because he's not answering his phone.
Tell him I packed up all his stuff and that I love and miss him, but I just can't live like this.
Never hear back from him. (which wouldn't be a big deal except I have his big screen tv, his kids clothes, ALL of his clothes, ALL of his movies, ALL of his CDs, and All of his stuff)
His sister (whom he is inseperable from) calls me yesterday to ask if I've heard from him.
Apparently he went to stay with a friend thursday and left his phone with her and NO one has heard from him since. Needless to say we are all worried because this is very uncharacteristic of him. It's getting serious and I don't have the slightest clue what the hell to do.
♥Oh, so vintage... 2:07 PM
