Wednesday, June 11, 2003
This sucks...
I can't even think of a song that relates my feelings. Why do I like him so much? Why am I so attracted to him? I stayed away for like 2 months and I think it just made it worse. I'm 99.9% sure this would not be a move for me to make, that I'd regret it eventually...won't I? UGH! I wish I knew. Part of me talks me out of him while the other part is saying but look how he treats you, no guy has ever been like that with you. Then I think "you're such a moron, guys will try to fool you everytime just to screw you over." I don't know what to think, I know that there are some things there that I know I want with all my heart and at the same time there are things there that I lived my whole life trying to avoid. So now what do I do with myself? Trouble is easy to find when It's looking for you and you're wearing a name-tag. For now I'll just go out this weekend to the Crosby fair where more trouble is going to be looking for me and his name is Russell. But hey, Court maybe you're luck rubbed off on me too, I gotta date ;) hmm...on second thought maybe that's not luck.
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:48 PM