Wednesday, October 01, 2003
I'm beginning to feel SO much better. I think the turning point was picking out graduation invitations. I had this idea that graduating wasn't really an acomplishment, but more of a requirement. Now I'm thinking a little differently. I'm actually pretty proud of this. I love Lamar. It's really been an awesome experience for me. I'm going to miss it too. That crazy DeeAnn and her sadistic husband, Everlina smiling at me every morning, sitting in the LUGS room just hanging out with everyone, crazy ass field trips,'cold and motionless' Karen, Josh, Loree, and Alex, man I'll miss them so much. But, life goes on and with it comes ever expanding possibilites. You learn so much about yourself during times like these. Here's what I know...
1. I always know who I am and who I always have been, I am
unfaltering,
independent,
strong-willed,
decisive,
confident, and always
enduring.
2. Although I know who I am, I do not always make the best choices for myself and have a hard time giving God control over these situations.
3. I know that I have to renew my myself periodically, call me a Renaissance woman if you like. Rebirth is the most important aspect of keeping me alive.
4. I have learned in passing that I crave inspiration to keep me on my path.
5. I must now take time to figure out how to keep inspiration and not let is slip from my grasp.
So wherever life my lead me and whatever I may do, I know what I can and will complete this journey. No one said it would be easy and no one said it would be hard. I know that I am a constant source of light that needs temporary rest from time to time.
"They are born with the knowledge that life is joyful, and can remain so, not by avoiding pain, but by accepting it; not by being good, but by confronting lust, greed, and envy and intergrating them into one's being"
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:28 PM
