Monday, June 21, 2004
Tonight is pool tournament night at Triggers. Unfortunately Jason has joined the pool league since I've been out of the picture. Now, I've been in a pretty good state of mind about it the past few days. It's like something can bring you down so low and then one day you wake up and look at it from a different angle and you realize that it makes you feel like million bucks. Suddenly you understand that shortcomings abound on the other side of the table, not just yours. Well tonight I'll be facing him for the first time in about a month. I'm not sure how I feel about it. At first my stomach tightened and I wanted to run to the bathroom and throw up. But then I thought this is bullshit, this is my bar, my life and my precious time at home with friends. He will NOT ruin that for me just because I have more ballz than he'll ever have. At least I can look him in the face, I doubt he can do the same to me. I've got ten times the potential now than I had with him. So yeah maybe he didn't want me taking this job, and maybe this job isn't the answer to my life's questions. But, I had to do it, just to prove I could. It was the most unlikely suprising thing I could have done short of joining the military. So here I sit on the edge of my destiny counting out all the things that could have gone right for me. Then I know that they did go right for me and this is all about me being able to do it alone and it always has been. If you wanna come along for the ride you're more than welcome, but don't get in my way.
♥Oh, so vintage... 11:37 AM
