Friday, September 10, 2004
I don't know why but this week has been sorta hard on my heart. Work is going well, but for some reason I've been so empty. I'm sitting here listening to Ryan Cabrera and all of these songs are killing me. I'm so sad. I went through the anger phase last weekend so I guess this is the next step? I can't remember anymore. Jason took the few pieces of my hear I had left after Josh and the other unmentionables and plowed right through them. I suppose I just don't understand why it happened. Part of me doesn't want to understand. I just want to wake up and not remember. Wake up and not know that I hurt. I'm going through this phase, I don't want anyone to even touch me. I feel like I've been raped and emotionally I have. How do you go from 100 miles an hour to a dead stop without having a head on collision that you would be lucky to survive?
♥Oh, so vintage... 8:34 AM