Saturday, December 04, 2004
Every once in a great while...
I forget how much fun I'm capable of having. I've been strolling down memory lane lately. Maybe I'm nostaligic because a year ago I graudated from college and life as I know it changed forever. Nontheless, I've been looking at pics, talking to old friends, thinking about all the fun I used to have. What happened to me? I know I can still have a good time, just ask Sara and Jess ;) I just wish I knew what the heck would get me in the mood to get out there and have a good time again. I know what would, a boy. A nice boy that didn't want to break my heart and just wanted to have fun. Alas, there is NO such thing. I'm fun Damnit! Why the hell am I stuck at home on a saturday night? why am I so satisfied spending the evenings sitting around a fire with Jess waiting for her kids to go to sleep so we can have a beer. Not that it's a bad thing, but when did I all the sudden turn so 'domestic'. I went through a pretty wild stage, what happened to that girl that was in the last stages of mastering the 'use em and lose em' philosophy? Why did she let herself fall in love with a deadbeat asshole? Is it because that's all that's out there, or is it like the deadbeat asshole himself said, I only go for losers?
♥Oh, so vintage... 5:59 PM
