I've documented all of my Rita experiences safely in a journal, and I don't know if I'll ever wish to speak of them again. Call it suppressed memories or whatever you like, but for now I simply want to move on with my life as if nothing ever happened. So I'll highlight the good points. We're all alive and we have our homes and at the moment most of us have electricity. For this I'm more grateful than any of you will ever know. I've never been so blessed and I know that God's hand was upon my shoulder and that my family rested in his hands during this ordeal. So many that I know were not so lucky. I pray that God will forgive me for the ill will I now hold towards certain groups of people, and I pray that someday I will be able to release this resentment and absolute hate I hold towards them. You can judge me all you like. Life is really too short and precious for me to waste time giving a damn about what people think. I come away from this knowing the weaknesses of humanity and the absolute strength that I have. I will make it an IMMEDIATE priority of mine to secure my concealed handgun license. I will also never give up on anything I feel strongly about from now on because life is too short to compromise your morals and beliefs in the name of 'not rocking the boat'. Having said that I will say one last thing... I will NEVER evacuate my home again. I don't care if I have to rebuild Noah's Ark or bulid a bomb shelter, but nothing will ever convince me short of nuclear holocaust to put myself or my family in that danger again. p.s. Amy, I love you and could have never made it through the past week and a half without you. You've been such a blessing to me and my family.
