Sometimes I feel like I'm watching the world from outside looking in. Does that ever happen to you? It can be the oddest thing that triggers it, like some inane comment from a friend that makes you question everything your life is built on. Your morals, and values and all those things you're so passionate about suddenly seem so distant and you wonder why it ever mattered at all because in the grand scheme of things it doesn't. I see so many negative things and people and places on a daily basis and I say to myself God please don't ever let me be so blind to myself that I act like that or worse yet become that. Maybe I am amiss because I don't hold my fellow peers in high respect. I suppose deep down I love them because they are all unique souls and deserve love, but I don't agree with them, and usually I don't like them. Consider me a snob I guess. I see it as insulation. A way to protect myself from all the ugly things that I do have control over in my life. I know you can't control everything, but you can control somethings. I told Brian last night that nothing pisses me off more than my life being affected by some idiot that's not smart enough to make decent decisions. I'm stingy with my time, I don't like setbacks, and I really don't like wasting my time. I feel like life is a precious gift and although it is not anywhere near the glory we'll experience on the otherside. We should cherish it and use it to the fullest of our abilities. Not waste time over petty differences. With that said, I'm going to school, so that someone else can waste my time and $ talking about something I already know.
